07 July 2012

The End of A Chapter

The day was full of boxes and masking tape but for the first time packing was separate, each of us sorting what was ours.

Neither of us are people that give up but we knew a chapter had closed; we both wanted to be able to remember our story fondly so "the end" seemed appropriate. Anger, hurt, resentment. It's all there but unimportant for the time being.

I used to think we were living on love but love is not always enough. I would give anything if it was.

"I love you guys," he said one last time before he turned to leave. My tears blurred his red face from my vision.

The door shut and I whispered, "I wish it was enough."

Just like that - it was over.

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This will be my last post for a while. I need to figure out how to balance providing for my son with picking up the pieces of my heart. Please check in - I'll be poking in around Twitter and Facebook when I can.

Thank you for your support and friendship.

33 comments:

  1. Oh Samantha I hope you are ok...I don't know exactly what happened but I will keep you and your little boy in my prayers!

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    1. I don't think I really know either! :(

      Thanks for your thoughts and prayers!!

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  2. I'm so sorry, Samantha! I hope you find solace. I will be keeping you all in my prayers.

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  3. Sam, I am praying for you and your family. I hope there might be a chance for reconciliation in the future but for now focusing on J and yourself is what's best. I hope you find all those pieces to your heart, don't forget to look under the couch cushions. If you need anything don't hesitate to ask. :)

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  4. Sam,
    I sent you an email. Please know we are here for us.
    Hugs.

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  5. Sam,

    I'm so sorry to read about this. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I hope things work out for the better and like Chelsea I also hope there's a chance for reconciliation. *big hugs* Take care of yourself.

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  6. Sam, this plain old sucks. I don't know what happened, or what else to say. If there is anything I can do let me know.

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  7. Oh, Sam! Are you okay? I am reading this with a heavy heart and so worried about you! I'll be checking in on you. Don't be a stranger. There are a lot of people that love you and are praying for you. I'm hear if you need me.

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  8. {Melinda} I am so, so sorry to read this. It makes my heart heavy. God can mend broken hearts and broken relationships. Praying for you and your sweet boy.

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  9. So sorry to read this. I've got you in my prayers.

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  10. Oh sweet friend. My heart aches with yours. I had no idea. Please, please know I'm here if you need anything. Sending prayers.

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  11. I'm sorry to read that this has happened. I'm thinking healing thoughts for you and your family while you all muddle through.

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  12. Nothing to say except I'm so sorry. Thoughts and hugs to you and Jackson. Hang in there.

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  13. Big hugs. I am so sorry for what you are going through. You and your gorgeous little boy will be in my prayers.

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  14. I am so very sorry. You and J will be in my thoughts. Sending you lots of love and hugs. xoxo

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  15. I'm sorry. Stay strong for your little boy and for yourself. HUGS!

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  16. I am so sorry, you and J are in my thoughts and prayers.
    XO

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  17. My heart hurts for you. :(

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  18. I'm just going to say...

    Holy Shit.

    I had no idea and feel terrible about being away from your space for so long. Please know that you are in my thoughts. I want only good things for you.

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  19. Sending you hugs and strength. So sorry

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  20. HUGS. Take care of yourself okay? You know where to reach out to when you need to. xo

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  21. Oh, Samantha. I'm so sorry. I'll be thinking of you guys.

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  22. praying for you as you figure out this time of transition.

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  23. Sending lots of prayers your way, Sam! I'm so sorry you are going through this, just know you have tons of support here whenever you need it. xoxo

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  24. The love and support in these comments just lifts up my spirit! Thank you all!!! I hope to be around again soon!

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  25. Sending lots of hugs your way.... I'm not sure what has happened and when you're ready you'll share. But know that we're all here to support you.

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  26. I'm sorry I was behind on reading my blogs... I'm even more sorry to hear of this. I believe you're a strong woman and you will get through this. Praying for you and little Jackson <3

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  27. Oh wow. I had no idea. I'm so sorry. Thinking of you guys and sending love your way.

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  28. Wow. I was just checkin twitter and saw you talking about this. I'm speechless. And so so sorry. I'll be praying for you.

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